Friday, November 14th, 2014
I take in a deep breath and open my eyes, drinking in the first drops of golden sunshine as they filter through the bars of the window. Prison is the nicest at these times of day. I smile calmly to myself and prepare myself for a routine festive day. I climb out of bed, stretch out, and head to brush my teeth in the tiny sink I share with my half dozen room- mates. As soon as my teeth are clean- well, as clean as I can get them with the low quality, watery toothpaste and sticks of brushes they give us- I run a hand through my tangled hair and wake up my room- mates. They grumble, of course, and ask me how I can bear waking up so early. Truth is, I’ve been waking up at 4 my entire life.
First thing in the morning, they take us for a 2 hour run along the icy terrain. We are given each a pair of thin gloves and a small jacket and told the run will warm us up enough. It does, if you run fast enough, and you imagine nice things about the land and your fellow inmates. This works pretty well, as long as I keep myself in control of my imagination. Once, when I was a child, I imagined my neighbour as a witch. I grew so frightened at this fantasy, that whenever I saw her coming, I would cross over to the other side of the road. My neighbour was in fact only a sweet, harmless old lady. As a very keen and sensitive person, she noticed my odd behaviour around her, and was consequentially heartbroken, when she found out from her grandson, that I thought she was a witch. I apologized and later, we became good friends. My Amma always told me I had an overactive imagination, and that I could be an author. But, looksee here, I’m in jail. Big whoop.
After our run, we have baths in water so cold, it is hotter than hell. Then, we attend our 4 hour ethics and ‘how to repent’ class with Ms. Penelope, but we call her Ms. Vanellope, like that character from the game Sugar Rush, cus she’s so sweet. Spoiler, Vanellope is actually in 2nd standard. Her father, Mr. von Darnell, brings her to this class to help us repent. The reason for this is that sometimes grownups are judgemental, and von Darnell wants us to tell someone what we did wrong, so we will feel worse for doing it. So, as a rule, all new inmates must tell little Vanellope what they did and she will tell them that it is alright and that they shouldn’t do it again. When I was brought here about 3 to 4 months back, they left me in a room with Vanellope. Here is how our conversation went:
VANELLOPE: What did you do wrong, Rishi uncle?
ME: I stole some money from the company I worked at
VANELLOPE: Why did you do that, uncle?
ME: I had to live on something, and I wasn’t getting paid enough.
VANELLOPE: Why didn’t you ask for more money?
ME: I did. They told me that they didn’t have enough money to go around currently.
VANELLOPE: If they said that, then wouldn’t they have a good reason.
ME: (bitterly) Bigwigs only want what is good for the company…… and themselves
VANELLOPE: But suppose they had a good reason, and some people were paid less than you, and you stole what was supposed to be their salary. Could you live with yourself?
ME: (after a few moments thought) Ah, well…… I suppose I couldn’t.
VANELLOPE: Now you realized it, will you promise you won’t do it again?
ME: Promise
VANELLOPE: God swear
ME: God swear
And I wasn’t planning to. Isn’t it amazing? I had spent 2 months in a previous facility, and I never thought I was much in the wrong, even with weeks and weeks worth of ethics class and ‘what you did was wrong’ lectures and whatnot, but a 7 year old taught me that what I did was inexcusable, in a 10 minute chat?
Today we had a pleasant surprise. Vanellope was walking around distributing copies of a book. My curiosity rose, and I gave the little girl a grateful smile as she handed me a copy. It was a handsome little book with a hardbound green cover. Titled in loopy red handwriting ‘Little Women’ by ‘Louisa May Alcott’
Mr. von Darnell stood on the stage and addressed us “You have all been good”-like we were naughty little children- “and hardworking, so we have decided to reward you with this new book. They are brand new and quite expensive. I expect you to take care of them, as you might not get any in the near future” I couldn’t believe my ears! Even if the rest of the day was completely lousy, this would make up for it. A new book! I had not had a new book since I landed up in prison nearly 6 months ago. The only book I had now, was a worn, faded but beautiful copy of ‘Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows’ I had chosen that one because not knowing what came after the words ‘the end’ opened the gates to a world of imagination that I could only enter in my sleep. The ornate ivory gates of the dreamworld are sometimes more real to me than the dingy walls and cold breezes around me. Past those gates are large fields of dewy flowers and vivid rainbows. Quaint little cottages dot the landscape and each homestead is more welcoming than the last. The colours here are like those in the real world, but in the Otherworld, they reach a vividness beyond comparison. The fruit is most delicious thing you will ever taste. Even the juiciest fruit seems as dry as sandpaper when you put fruit from the otherworld on your tongue. Of course, I tend to ramble on and on about this world and people think me strange.
After ethics, we were sent off to work. My current job was as a baker’s apprentice. I had to lug sacks of flour and manage the register, but today, I would be learning to bake. I head of to the little village nearby the prison with Shashi and Mohan. Shashi is the mason’s apprentice and Mohan is the junior potter. We set off with 3 or 4 four guards behind us, making sure we don’t run for it. Like we’d be THAT stupid. I reach the little bakery, bid goodbye to my friends, and enter the building with the little bell on the door ringing. The bakery owner Mrs. Meringue, a sturdy, kind faced woman in her 70s tells me that today we will make her famous Meringue meringues. We get baking, and before long, she says “ Rishi Khanna, I swear, you must have a natural gift for baking. Your meringues are better than MY son’s, and he has been baking for years and years!”
I finished baking my meringues, and as a reward, she let me have a whole tray of freshly baked cream puffs half price. She would have let me have them free, but I wouldn’t hear of it. I went back at 6’o clock with warm fresh cream puffs in a little bag for my friends. All in all, it had been a very satisfying day. I had cream puffs, I had learned that I was a baking prodigy, I had a new book, a new bit of fancy for my imagination to chew on. The only thing that could make this day perfect was reading a chapter from my old copy of Harry Potter. I did just that. Shafts of soft moonlight fall on my face as I drift to sleep. if sunlight is gold, then moonlight is silver. Deepavali was fun. Tomorrow, my run will be longer, I’ll have to work in the fields, ethics will only be 1 hour, I’ll have to wake up at 3, and I’ll have to switch to a new apprenticeship for a week before coming back to baking, but…….. tomorrow will be tomorrow, I’ll just enjoy today. And so I float to that land hidden behind those elaborately carved gates and pearly walls